I posted on Facebook something to the effect that the day was not going well with me and the kids.
Two people questioned my interest in being a mother, family members at that.
And it really hurt my feelings. Like almost called Bryce and cried to him.
I try really hard not to judge other people or say things about how they choose to live their lives.
I LOVE being a mother.
But that doesn't mean that each day with my children is perfect.
I try to post things that are 'real' about how life really is right now.
And I have a lot of hard days.
I have four kids under the age of six.
I chose that path.
I feel very blessed that I have the opportunity to raise my own children.
But it's still hard.
Every night I give thanks for the blessings that I have.....although those feelings don't always make it out to the viral world.
Plus, that stuff isn't entertaining.
For instance, if I were to post a story about how I went to the bathroom to read a magazine and no one once saw my white be-hind, it would not make anyone laugh or make their day.
They couldn't say to themselves 'I'm having a really rough day, but at least I haven't accidentally mooned anyone in awhile'.
Plus, in some ways, I consider myself a writer, and in that profession (that term is used loosely) the truth is often exaggerated.
But I am grateful, deeply grateful, for those kids I can call mine.
- that Meg came and snuggled in bed with me this morning
- that Elizabeth is home for the summer
- that Elizabeth and Adeline are playing together non stop
- that Elizabeth is really enjoying reading
- that Spencer is cooing a lot and smiles when I kiss his soft cheeks
- that the weather has been nice and the girls have cute swimsuit tan lines
- that Meg loves to follow her sisters around
- that the girl's feel sad if no one says 'I forgive you' after an apology
- that the girls try really, really hard to be obedient at night time, but that the temptation to play with each other and have fun is too great
- that everyone loves to hold sweet Spencer
- that Elizabeth still likes to hold my hand
- that Adeline is Meg's favorite person
- that the girls love Taylor Swift, I know she's a polarizing artist, but she's a good role model for girls
- that my girls love the movie Singing in the Rain
- that the girls think going to Taco Bell and getting $.89 cheesy roll-ups is a big deal
- that the kids are loving and forgiving of a mom who is imperfect but trys her best everyday
Thanks for listening.